tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328506972024-03-12T19:50:19.949-05:00From the Horse's Mouth...Words for Healing and Positive Transformation...from yesterday, today, and into tomorrow.Renee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.comBlogger82125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-30043137302009824742012-08-13T17:00:00.002-05:002012-08-13T17:00:37.954-05:00Thoughts about Healing and Speaking Truth...This past year has definitely been about my own self-healing and letting go. It's also been about speaking the truth. <br />
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Though I am writing about this here, it comes to mind that the healing starts within each person but then must continue and extend to our families, our communities, and to an ever widening circle to continues out...infinitely.<br />
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It requires courage to change. <br />
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Change in ourselves, our families, and our communities. All have been impacted by "historic trauma generated by colonization, forced assimilation, and stripped rights to self-determination," as stated by Alaska Native, Evon Peter, in his article on A Discourse on Change, Tundrapost.<br />
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Dialogue about what is really happening in our communities must start from a place of solution rather than complaint. I have gone through trainings on community healing where there was some time for this dialogue to begin but that was toward the end of the training. And that is where we would leave off. <br />
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I suppose the thought was that we, as a community, would continue the dialogue.<br />
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Change...<br />
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I want to follow through. However that is to be. <br />
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Again, it begins with me.<br />
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Renee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-19979518014763838292012-04-11T15:14:00.003-05:002012-04-11T18:02:10.746-05:00Been Toooooo Long...<div><div>It's been over a year since my last posting.</div><div> </div><div>So much happened and the year went by quickly. I will be writing regularly, once again. Just sharing this for now...</div><div> </div><div>The Star Lodge</div><div> </div><div>I cannot help but feel...</div><div> </div><div>Each time I stand </div><div>beneath the stars<br />on a hill </div><div>It's like being in</div><div>the midst of a lodge</div><div>Which encompasses the universe </div><div>Infinitely</div><div>extending in</div><div>every direction</div><div> </div><div>Each star has a place</div><div>in this lodge</div><div>in the Sky</div><div>they dance in time</div><div>with our hearts</div><div>on Earth</div><div>Like mirrors encapsulating</div><div>Our spirits</div><div>Unending</div><div> </div><div>We are the Stars</div><div>And they are us </div><div> </div><div>Inseparable as<br />the Earth and Sky </div><div> </div><div>Scintillating starlight </div><div>rushes through our veins </div><div>like<br />molten rock </div><div> </div><div>As we dance...For life</div><div> </div></div>Renee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-15089491190272105662011-02-24T17:41:00.002-06:002011-02-24T18:29:47.497-06:00A New Path or True Path?Just when I think I may be in a certain place for a while, life changes. I made another move in November of last year. Not wholly unexpected or cataclysmic, but still monumental. I am home on the rez. <br /><br />What does this mean? As I was preparing for the move, I was told that I was on a "New Path" then once I returned home, I learned that I am back on my "True Path." One that I've been well prepared for. <br /><br />Hmmm...<br /><br />This sounds so serious! It all makes me quite thoughtful about how I want things to be. So, for the first time in my life, I do not feel rushed into anything. <br /><br />And I like that feeling!<br /><br />Since September of last year, I experienced an intense amount of healing and understanding taking place in my spirit. Like my cells were rearranging themselves. I made peace with some very important people in my life, and as I did so I felt the fear evaporate and my heart become solid with love. I let go in order to continuing walking forward on my path.<br /><br />I have many plans and am setting those plans into motion. Some extend way beyond myself and others are very short-term. <br /><br />I've received an invitation to visit a Sami school in Norway this spring, and to spend some time with young students who are interested in Native people from the U.S. I, too, am very interested in learning more about the Sami people in that region. This experience will also help me to refine the ideals for my school, Path of the Sun. <br /><br />I am hearing the Omaha language spoken, once again. I am taking that in, slowly, as well. Savoring the feeling for the moment. It's an immersion in joy. Preparation for what's to come in Path of the Sun!<br /><br />I am continuing my work as a Teaching Artist and am working with Omaha Nation Public School. Working with younger students this time around. Coming up with concepts for them that they will remember for the rest of their lives. <br /><br />I love to sing! I love to write! I love to teach! It's all here to breathe in!<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">True Path...resonates in my spirit. </span><br /><br />What it means to me is that, at long last, I have gained confidence in my own abilities to do what I have always wanted to do!<br /><br />And it feels so right!Renee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-53545283592907244722010-10-19T08:02:00.004-05:002010-10-19T11:38:56.243-05:00Striking Flint...<meta name="Title" content=""> <meta name="Keywords" content=""> <meta equiv="Content-Type" content="text/html; charset=utf-8"> <meta name="ProgId" content="Word.Document"> <meta name="Generator" content="Microsoft Word 11"> <meta name="Originator" content="Microsoft Word 11"> <link rel="File-List" href="file://localhost/Users/renee/Library/Caches/TemporaryItems/msoclip1/01/clip_filelist.xml"> <!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <o:documentproperties> <o:template>Normal</o:Template> <o:revision>0</o:Revision> <o:totaltime>0</o:TotalTime> <o:pages>1</o:Pages> <o:words>335</o:Words> <o:characters>1913</o:Characters> <o:lines>15</o:Lines> <o:paragraphs>3</o:Paragraphs> <o:characterswithspaces>2349</o:CharactersWithSpaces> <o:version>11.518</o:Version> </o:DocumentProperties> <o:officedocumentsettings> <o:allowpng/> </o:OfficeDocumentSettings> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:worddocument> <w:zoom>0</w:Zoom> <w:donotshowrevisions/> <w:donotprintrevisions/> <w:displayhorizontaldrawinggridevery>0</w:DisplayHorizontalDrawingGridEvery> <w:displayverticaldrawinggridevery>0</w:DisplayVerticalDrawingGridEvery> <w:usemarginsfordrawinggridorigin/> </w:WordDocument> </xml><![endif]--> <style> <!-- /* Font Definitions */ @font-face {font-family:"Times New Roman"; panose-1:0 2 2 6 3 5 4 5 2 3; mso-font-charset:0; mso-generic-font-family:auto; mso-font-pitch:variable; mso-font-signature:50331648 0 0 0 1 0;} @font-face {font-family:Monaco; panose-1:0 2 0 5 0 0 0 0 0 0; mso-font-charset:0; mso-generic-font-family:auto; mso-font-pitch:variable; mso-font-signature:50331648 0 0 0 1 0;} /* Style Definitions */ p.MsoNormal, li.MsoNormal, div.MsoNormal {mso-style-parent:""; margin:0in; margin-bottom:.0001pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:12.0pt; font-family:Times;} h2 {mso-style-next:Normal; margin:0in; margin-bottom:.0001pt; text-align:center; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; page-break-after:avoid; mso-outline-level:2; font-size:12.0pt; font-family:Monaco;} table.MsoNormalTable {mso-style-parent:""; font-size:10.0pt; font-family:"Times New Roman";} @page Section1 {size:8.5in 11.0in; margin:1.0in 1.25in 1.0in 1.25in; mso-header-margin:.5in; mso-footer-margin:.5in; mso-paper-source:0;} div.Section1 {page:Section1;} --> </style> <!--StartFragment--> <p class="MsoNormal">This is the first part of my Introduction in the Nebraska Educator's Guide to American Indian Singing and Dancing: Making Connections to the Classroom, to be published by the LIED Center for Performing Arts.
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<br />Any body of work produced by an artist or any lesson taught by an educator, most often feels in the beginning, as if one is striking flint to ignite a spark in a field of grass. This task may seem overwhelming and even, at times, impossible.
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<br />During the spring of 2010, my children and I witnessed a fire lighting ceremony in northern Wisconsin. It began right before sunrise in an enclosed structure, much like a shed with a large opening at the top. As we gathered that morning, the firekeepers, men who were presiding over this ceremony, cleared a space toward the center of this structure. My children and I stood to one side with many others. Several firekeepers stood in a circle and began to hit sticks together, rhythmically, as if they were beating on a drum. They also started singing a beautiful ceremonial song of renewal.
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<br />One of the men had the responsibility of lighting the fire by striking flint together until he was able to ignite a bundle of grass into a smoldering flame. He blew on the grass until it burned higher, then added small pieces of wood so that the flame grew large enough for more wood to be added, until finally, he had a great fire, burning brightly. The song ended once this was achieved, then all the men added their rhythm sticks to the sacred fire...one by one. For four days, the ceremonial fire was kept burning until the spring ceremonies were completed.
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<br />In many Native cultures, the gift of fire came from the Thunder Beings, who are the givers of life and death. This gift was to be kept in a sacred manner and was never to be abused or discarded. It was through fire that the people were able to cook their food and to stay warm during the cold seasons.
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<br />The key in striking flint to ignite a flame is to do so, patiently, and relentlessly. It is a process that is well understood in the act of creation, as well as in teaching. The goal being to bring an ideal to life through art or to ignite the imaginations of young minds that are placed within our care, much like the firekeepers whose responsibility it is to bring the sacred fire into this universe.
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Some were actually real. <br /><br />I went to my relative, Yvonne Ortiz' graveside, to lay down tobacco and ask for a blessing of peace for her mother and father. They miss her. Unbearably so.<br /><br />I miss her. <br /><br />Her voice came to me for a moment, from two years ago, when she told me how her tumors had returned. She asked for prayers. And I prayed. <br /><br />Then my sister Tara's voice came to me when she called me one morning last November, to tell me that she was preparing to come to Macy. With Yvonne. That they were bringing her home. <br /><br />During the wake and funeral, I don't think the Omaha Indian Reservation had ever had so many Ojibwe's, (Midewiwins at that), and Dakota's in one location in a very long time. If ever. <br /><br />And they came for Yvonne.<br /><br />At 29, she made her Spirit Journey. She left a strong legacy behind of living a healthy lifestyle. She was dedicated to serving the Native community in researching the traditional uses of natural tobacco. The 5th Annual Connecting Our Lifeways: Traditional Tobacco Use and Contemporary Use Conference honored her by hosting a 1k memorial walk at the Prairie Island Indian Community, Minnesota.<br /><br />I think of her in this way, while she was here, she put her entire being into everything she did, thoroughly, and she smiled all the time. A magical, gorgeous smile that dazzled everyone who saw her this way.<br /><br />So, I thought of her smile, as I lay down the natural tobacco on her grave. It was for her parents, that they can go on living with perhaps a little less pain. <br /><br />The clouds had cleared and the sun smiled down, gorgeously, on the beautiful place where she lies.Renee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-11331741608095169972010-09-02T19:04:00.003-05:002010-09-02T19:49:39.115-05:00Making Connections: Am I unwilling to emotionally invest?I had a great visit on the phone with my sister, Tara, last night. She was on her way to Rapid City for a job interview and had just stopped for the night somewhere in South Dakota. Our conversation ran along the lines of where we are in our lives right now, at least, career wise. Both of us are single mothers and are very dedicated to a way of life that is in service to the people.<br /><br />One of the things that I have always valued about my connection with Tara is that I need to do very little explaining about what's happening in my life. She gets what I am saying.<br /><br />In talking with her, I said, "I have been here in Lincoln for a little over two years now and although I have a really strong connection with our sundance circle here, I still have held many people at arms length! I haven't really connected with anyone here, like I did in the Twin Cities!"<br /><br />She replied, "Well, it's because you have been uncertain about what you are going to do, whether you are going to stay there or not. You haven't made any emotional investments! Especially if you plan to move again."<br /><br />Hmmmm...this gave me much to think about today. <br /><br />I went to the Talking Circle last night. I got to share and again, feel very connected to this circle, as well. I really do love people in the Lincoln Community! But I know this about myself. I hesitate to get close. Getting close to someone, anyone, can be an absolute joy but can also be terrifying if one has to leave. <br /><br />Okay. So what do I do?<br /><br />I have been spending time with different friends, from time to time. I have hosted birthday parties at my house and have had ceremonies, too. So, I am not totally reclusive! And, I am continually surrounded with my children. <br /><br />This is an interesting time for me. I feel that I am becoming the writer I've always wanted to be and I am doing the things I love to do! But there is still that one element of letting anyone get close to me. <br /><br />I need to grow...again.Renee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-54356575385487303412010-06-23T16:55:00.003-05:002010-06-24T16:29:42.069-05:00On This PathMoving forward on this path, I desire to understand...<br /><br />The ancestors.<br /><br />The ceremonies.<br /><br />The medicines.<br /><br />The land.<br /><br />The languages.<br /><br />The future.<br /><br />A way of life that brings them all together in a good way. <br /><br />WibthahoN, Pilamaya, Miigwetch, Thank you.Renee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-18432348569719706402010-02-03T18:02:00.003-06:002010-02-04T20:06:41.314-06:00Remember Who You Are...I had a great conversation with my Kanai relative, Jack Gladstone, the other night. Whenever we talk, it's about the words we use in our work as artists. I admire Jack's work as a poet/lyricist/singer. And he's a great storyteller. <br /><br />I shared with him about how difficult it has been for me to write lately because I've been in a slump. So, how do I overcome that? Hmmm...<br /><br />Jack helped with some insight. He talked about acceptance and told me that I need to accept that Yvonne has passed. And, that once I've accepted that, then I can began the process of making connections to her life and writing about her in the lyrical form, through organic metaphor.<br /><br />To a poet, like me, words are magical. In these suggestions he gave me, something took root in my brain cells and began to flourish. <span style="font-style: italic;">Organic metaphor... </span><br /><br />All of this, takes me back to 2007 when I wrote the poem View from the Holy Fire Place for my Uncle Ralph "Rocky" Preston and read it at his wake. After the reading, I was approached by Sheila Rocha, founder of “The Indigenous Collective of Theater and the Arts" (<span class="search-hilite">TICOTA</span>), a non-profit organization based in Omaha, Nebraska. Sheila and I sat outside by the fire for some time that evening and talked about the scarcity of Native Women poets in the Midwest. During our conversation she spoke about her upcoming production called "Sacred Sites: Honoring Native Lands" and she invited me to submit my poem View from the Holy Fire Place. <br /><br />In this poem, I wrote about the Holy Fire Place, which is a sacred site on the Omaha Indian Reservation where the Omaha people went for their vision quests. Throughout the years when I was living on the Omaha Reservation, I continually went there seeking solace and usually came away with a calmer frame of mind. <br /><br />The Sacred Sites: Honoring Native Lands production was performed in February of 2008 at the Rose Theatre. I traveled from Minneapolis to Omaha to attend one of the performances, which were quite beautiful and involved many Native dancers, singers, and actors. <br /><br />I think it's every artist's dream to have their work performed in a production such as this. When it was time for the scene, which featured my poem, it was performed by Richard Borea, one of my Omaha relatives. I was so touched and felt my spirit lifted. <br /><br />Richard and I talked afterwards. He told me how excited he was to be a part of this production and how he really appreciated my poem because he knew about the Holy Fire Place and understood the feeling behind it. Then he shared with me his Omaha name, Yellow Horse. I just looked at him in surprise for a moment, then I burst out "that was my father's name, too! This was meant to be!" We were like kids, jumping up and down, crying.<br /><br />We are all connected and by writing about these connections, well that involves a unified experience or Organic Metaphor, which we experience in our tribal circles or as "All My Relations!" <br /><br />So it leads to this present time for me. A time for healing. And, once again, I can revisit the Holy Fire Place in my spirit, and continue my healing through acceptance.<br /><br />"As you are making all these connections, remember who you are!" said my cousin, Jack. <br /><br />Words are like magic..<br /><br />Thanks, Jack!Renee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-66450539871262074042010-02-01T13:18:00.002-06:002010-02-01T13:59:08.357-06:00Never Give Up!Never give up! A message I received over the weekend in sweat. Just in time to help me stay focused on my path. Lots coming up for me and my kids over the next few months. Ceremonies, ceremonies, and then more ceremonies!<br /><br />It is so good to see things stabilize for my children in school. I think I can actually take a deep breath here and say thank you to the Above! WibthahoN! My kids are happy!<br /><br />So much going through my mind, voices, or words more like, that I am trying to capture on the written page! It could be that I just drank too much coffee from Starbucks! Got coffee nerves now! Ha, ha!<br /><br />Been putting a lot of prayers out there for friends and relatives. Especially for the women who have been so supportive of me all these years. It's hard to see them become ill. They don't deserve this when they have such beautiful hearts and work so hard! My thoughts are with them today, too.<br /><br />Today is also the birthday of my relative, Yvonne Ortiz. She made her journey to the spirit world in November. Since her passing, something in me changed. An understanding came, as a mother. Yvonne had twin baby girls last spring and she was also battling cancer. She loved her babies more than anything. Her mother, Felicia, made a request of me to write a poem about Yvonne. This, too, has been on my mind. I wish to honor her in a good way through the gift of words...<br /><br />But it is hard...<br /><br />Because every time, I think about writing for her, I cry. So I wind up praying instead.<br /><br />Yvonne's determination to have her babies in spite of what was happening in her body is what has struck me most. She was so strong and believed in her prayers, life, and love. <br /><br />I am in awe of her determination. And that has changed me. So those words I heard this past weekend, reinforce that change.<br /><br />I love you, Yvonne!Renee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-54087141102458030752009-08-14T20:30:00.007-05:002009-08-14T23:53:08.522-05:00Pow-wows, Everyday Life, and Twilight Dreams<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Returning home is always a blessing. Last weekend I went home to the Omaha Tribe's Harvest Celebration Pow-wow in Macy, NE. This years pow-wow was rumored to have been canceled due to funding issues, however what I seen upon arrival was a full celebration going strong.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Found my mother, Alice Saunsoci, who was sitting behind my brothers' drum group, Rock Bottom. She looked beautiful and relaxed in her light colored regalia and she was extremely happy to see me and the kids. She gave me a hug and kiss and told me to set my chair next to hers.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">I sat in my star spangled pow-wow chair for a time mesmerized by the dancing and singing. Kids took off right away to see whatever there was to see. I had told them, as we were traveling back to Macy, about my escapades when I was little. I used to run all over the pow-wow grounds with my cousins chasing the Moore Boys from Pawnee, Oklahoma. So I knew the entire place like my own palm. Lots of good memories there. Heh-heh.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">After a time, I became thirsty and got up to go in search for something to drink. I stopped suddenly when I heard someone call me name. My cousin/sister Mary waved me over to where she was sitting. She stood up and gave me a hug as soon as I walked up to her.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">"What? No famous writers with you this time?" she asked playfully.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">"Nope. No writers, actors, or producers came along with me this time around!" I responded with a smile, "Just me!"</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">I let my eyes roam the crowd as we stood and talked. Everywhere I looked were familiar faces of my Omaha relatives, with a few unknown ones scattered here and there.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">The atmosphere was so very warm and carnival like. It felt good to be amongst my tribe once again.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Mary's question, though said in jest, sent me into a contemplative state. As I walked the midway, continuing my search for some thirst quenching concoction, I realized that the last time I'd been to our pow-wow was in 2007. And, yes, I was accompanied by Christopher Cartmill, the writer/playwright, Mary was referring to. Chris and I had forged an unbreakable bond of friendship and understanding that year. He became my brother.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">2007 was about change. Then 2008 was a blur. And 2009?</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Contemplation #1: This year has been about rebuilding a life...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">We've been in Lincoln for little over a year now and have a comfortable little home in a quiet neighborhood surrounded by good people. It's exactly what I had hoped for.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">I heard the M.C., Chiefy, (everyone knows Chiefy!) announce that there was going to be two intertribals before the next special. I hurried back to my mom and we went out to dance in the arena. One of the intertribal songs was sung by my brothers, Omaha Lodge. As they sang, I felt my spirit fill with happiness so I started dancing with a lot of energy. I even felt some tears slip down my face at some point. This was exactly where I needed to be in that moment.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">When the song was over and we found our seats again, my kids came bounding over to me smiling like big puppies. They all had snow cones that their Aunty Alison had bought for them. They each said that they were having a good time, then they bounded off once again to who knows where.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Contemplation #2: My kids' happiness is the mainstay of my life...</span><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;" >I have been totally focused on helping my kids adjust to all the changes in their lives. I have been relentless about building resiliency in them and within myself. Standing strong no matter what. A description of resiliency goes like this: </span><span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Arial;font-size:130%;" ><span style=""><br /><br />"Resilience is a term used to describe a set of qualities that foster a process of successful adaptation and transformation despite risk and adversity (Benard, 1995). Persons who are resilient have the capacity to withstand, overcome, or recover from serious threat (Masten, 2001). Simply put, resilience is the ability to bounce back from adversity."<br /><br />My kids and I have been through some extreme test of adversity in the past year.<br /><br />A year ago, we stood in a place where we had no home. We faced a situation that held a great threat to our well-being. And we survived it.<br /><br />Contemplation #3: Our family resiliency is based on our spirituality...<br /><br /></span></span><span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Arial;font-size:130%;" ><span style="">As the pow-wow wound up for the year, the endnote was on a happy one. Everyone was happy! </span></span><span style=";font-family:Arial;font-size:85%;" ><span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;" >Seeing my kids happy and having fun at our pow-wow brought me great joy, which I am very thankful for! Spending time with my mom also brought us happiness.<br /><br />This year has been all about building our resiliency through our spirituality. I have been dedicated to going to sweats and sundance, and to learning the Lakota ceremony songs and then singing them to my kids. They are Lakota. They frequently attend sweats and ceremonies with me. They know what I pray for...just as they know what I work on everyday.<br /><br />In everyday life, I strive to exemplify those virtues that Native people hold dear: Humility, compassion, respect, and fortitude. There are others, of course, but I just wanted to mention those ones right now.<br /><br />I dream at times when I am still awake. Twilight dreams between the night and day. Glimpses of the strands of time, if there are such things, though I've heard that they are called "strings."<br /><br />We drove home the next day after pow-wow. Refreshed and ready to began anew. Our little home was waiting for us just as we had left it the day before.<br /></span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><br /></span>Renee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-30746121817533376512009-04-23T10:01:00.002-05:002009-04-23T10:16:03.251-05:00A Journey to the Heart...My Home<span style="font-weight: bold;">Many have heard me recite this poem in the past year. It is an epic about the migration of many tribes from the East but it is also my own story. It took me many years to find it and by doing so, I am continuing to walk this journey to the heart, it's unending...</span><br /><br />A Journey to the Heart…My Home<br />By Renee Sans Souci<br /><br />Dedicated to Bawdwayidun (Eddie Benton-Benai), Grand Chief of the Three Fires Midewiwin Lodge<br /><br />It actually began millennia ago…that journey<br />Brave ancestors walked these pure paths unbridled by self-doubt or shame<br />We knew as Midewiwin people even then that there was no beginning or no end<br />And anything was possible we were told…<br /><br />My grandmothers and grandfathers once trod those sunrise shores<br />Known as the Atlantic in this new language we speak now<br />We lived in the hills and the mountains amidst unquenched beauty<br />Rooted like medicine to a way of life that beheld all of Creation<br /><br />Our lives were filled with the wonder of the Earth and the Sky<br />That swirled around us like the protective aroma of cedar and sage<br />The days were redolent with the offerings of our sacred tobacco<br />A gift from the Creator for the intercession of All Our Relations<br /><br />We thrived during this quiescent time at the height of our splendor<br />Until the seven prophets arrived to prepare us for the coming flood<br />They sent out a call in urgent proclamation up and down the coastline<br />Beseeching us to leave our beloved homes for the inland breathe of life<br /><br /><br />Many were importuned to join this Great Migration to follow the Sacred Shell<br />So we poured out from the land of the Morning Star People tribe upon tribe<br />And like a surging river we flowed together with one mind, body, and spirit<br />Destined to reach the grounds of Manomin the food that grows on top of the water<br /><br />Out of the woodlands we heard the reverberations of the Little Boy Water Drum across the Great Lakes<br />Then it came to pass that my people chose a route south of the streaming movement<br />So we took up the Little Boy and pooled in the Ohio Basin for several generations seeking the plentitude that was offered there<br />During the era of the lively multi-tribal trading complexes known as the Angel Site and Cahokia<br /><br />Eventually we proceeded onward through the magnificent Michizeebee along with our Ponca, Quapaw, Osage, and Konze relatives<br />Where we emerged as the Omaha or those who traveled upstream against the current <br />Adopting new ways of life we absorbed knowledge from our relatives the Iowa, the Arikara, the Lakota, and the Pawnee<br />Interspersed in our lives were especially the teachings of the Midewiwin and the Little Boy<br /><br />Always in motion the people of Turtle Island reflect the teeming movement of the stars<br />Our energy pulsed in time with the Cosmos, the Four Directions, and the atomic subparticles of the earth<br />The Omahas referred to this lifeforce energy that permeated everything around us as Wakonda<br />In this way Wakonda helped us to discern and develop relationships with all the first beings who are the natural elements<br /><br />Our new source of life was our relative the river Nishude aka the Smoky Missouri<br />Moving downriver along this watercourse we became known as exemplary peacemakers and agrarians<br />Experts in settling conflicts and in harvesting corn, squash and beans, the Three Sisters treasured by us all<br />Earth People, Sky People, our tribal circle was our law, our homes, and our relatives<br /><br />Generations marked the passage of time with the turning of the sun and the appearance of the moon<br />Until the light skinned race arrived as was foretold by the seven prophets in the land of the Morning Star People<br />The first were the Voyageurs, traders from the French Nation, who came bearing gifts of good will<br />They married into the Omaha and assimilated with an ease as if they had always been a part of us<br /><br />The others who came after the French brought diseases that ravaged our villages and brought us to the edge of obliteration<br />The few who survived witnessed their proud lifestyle vanish in the smoke of meaningless words<br />Millions of acres of land were ceded through treaties made with the United States in false promises of the reservations<br />Only to find that as wards of the government we were no longer in control of our very breath of life it seemed<br /><br />The following are words from the Omaha, White Horse:<br /><br />“Now the face of all the land is changed<br />and sad. The living creatures are gone.<br />I see the land desolate, and I suffer<br />unspeakable sadness. Sometimes I wake in<br />the night and feel as though I should suffocate<br />from the pressure of this awful feeling of<br />loneliness."<br /><br />So said White Horse on August 13,1912.<br /><br />My Grandparents and parents lived through the aftermath of such devastation with great resiliency<br />They were products of an education that strove to silence their beautiful voices and break apart our unending traditions<br />At a time when we lost so much including the heartbeat of the Little Boy Waterdrum<br />We were visited by the Sounding Voice, Bawdwayidun, of the Lac Courte Oreille Ojibwe Nation in 1958<br /><br />My Grandmother was a member of the Shell Society, our midewiwin lodge that began in the time of the Seven Prophets<br />She was one of those who feted Bawdwayidun and offered him gifts to hear the voice of the Little Boy once again<br />In those songs were contained the history of our migration which had been dormant memories in my elders’ hearts<br />Rivulets of my Grandmother’s tears ran unchecked down her face in longing for the original teachings of the midewiwin<br /><br />Tears are as strong as prayers and leave a trail in unborn hearts that have yet to beat in the future lives of our children<br />In 1962, I was born, four years after that historic meeting between the Sounding Voice and the Shell Society<br />What was forgotten by the time I grew up were the connections between all Native people of this land<br />Unawakened as I was for many years I wondered why I was living in such a barren state of belief<br /><br />I felt isolated in my own unbearable sadness living through such heartbreak that I thought would never end<br />But a sound from a distance came my way and I heard my name addressed in a language unfamiliar to my ears<br />Yet the drumming was quite familiar and it spoke to my wounded heart through ancient beats from earlier times<br />You belong to me, he said in a young voice, come this way and I will show you the lifeforce of your people<br /><br />So I followed this calling without hesitation to the woodlands of the Ojibwe Nation<br />And there I was introduced to Bawdwayidun, the Sounding Voice of the Three Fires Midewiwin Lodge<br />Through Bawdwayidun I learned that for 50 years he kept the tears of my Grandmother close to his heart<br />Our tears mingle together now and mark my journey to the Little Boy who has welcomed me home to the Way of the Heart that is mine…<br /><br />- Manitou Ishta Duhmoo Quay (Sacred Horse Woman)<br /><br /><br />“I’m just a human being trying to make it in a world that is very rapidly losing its understanding of being human" - John Trudell (Isanti Dakota)<br /><br />“Find us Spirit Horses and teach us how to ride! With Seven Generations of promise at our side!” - From the song Spirit Horses by Annie Humphrey (Ojibwe)Renee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-42502826884434171492009-04-20T01:42:00.002-05:002009-04-20T01:55:35.793-05:00Golden Feather...One of my favorite songs by Robbie Robertson. Found this video on youtube. Lyrics are below...<br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/z93kRj0J3rk&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/z93kRj0J3rk&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />Golden Feather by Robbie Robertson<br /><br />I think I'll go on back to Shenandoah<br />she said that she'd meet me by the fork in the road<br />I jump start my one eyed Ford<br />I'm heading for the pow-wow<br />follow the red path that leads to you.<br /><br />I gave my love a golden feather<br />I gave my love a heart of stone<br />and when you find a golden feather<br />it means you'll never lose your way back home.<br /><br />Should I paint my face<br />should I pierce my skin<br />does this make me a pagan<br />sweating out my sins<br />we ate the sacred mushroom<br />and waded in the water<br />howling like coyotes<br />at the naked moon.<br /><br />I gave my love a golden feather<br />I gave my love a heart of stone<br />and when you find a golden feather<br />it means you'll never lose your way back home.<br /><br />In the autumn night<br />when there's no wind blowin'<br />I could hear the stars falling in the dark<br />when you find out what's worth keeping<br />with a breath of kindness<br />blow the rest away.<br /><br />I gave my love a golden feather<br />I gave my love a heart of stone<br />and when you find a golden feather<br />it means you'll never lose your way back home.Renee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-83711490767741307062009-04-08T11:29:00.003-05:002009-04-08T12:23:19.389-05:00Love Remains the Same by Gavin Rossdale<span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">This song suits my mood today. As I am understanding that love really knows no boundaries. Remembering the past as well as what is in the here and now...because I know that no matter what...there is always still love.</span><br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/No8e0OE9QAU&hl=en&fs=1"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/No8e0OE9QAU&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" height="344" width="425"></embed></object><br /><br />a thousand times i've seen you standing<br />gravity like a lunar landing<br />make me want to run till i find you<br />shut the world away from here, drift to you, you're all i hear<br />everything we know fades to black<p>half the time the world is ending, truth is i am done pretending</p><p>i never thought that i had any more to give<br />pushing me so far here i am without you<br />drink to all that we have lost, mistakes that we have made<br />everything will change, love remains the same</p><p>i find a place where we escape<br />take you with me for a space<br />a city bus that sounds just like a fridge</p><p>walk the streets through seven bars<br />i had to find just out where you are<br />the faces seen to blur they're all the same</p><p>half the time the world is ending, truth is i am done pretending</p><p>i never thought that i had any more to give<br />you're pushing me so far here i am without you<br />drink to all that we have lost, mistakes that we have made<br />everything will change, love remains the same</p><p>so much more to say, so much to be done<br />don't you trick me out, we shall overcome<br />cause our love stays ablaze</p><p>we should have had the sun<br />could have been inside<br />instead we're over here</p><p>half the time the world is ending, truth is i am done pretending<br />too much time to love defending, you and i are done pretending</p><p>i never thought that i had any more to give<br />you're pushing me so far here i am without you<br />drink to all that we have lost, mistakes that we have made<br />everything will change, everything will change</p><p>oh, i.........</p><p>this could last forever</p><p>oh, i........</p><p>we could last forever</p><p>love remains the same<br />love remains the same</p>Renee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-22147747963153288162009-04-07T13:54:00.003-05:002009-04-07T14:08:28.330-05:00Peace by Colleen New Holy<span style="font-style: italic;">My daughter Colleen wrote this last night because I was overcome suddenly with such a longing for my former life in the Twin Cities and all that I had gone through there. I have found my peace through her and everything that I do in my life.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">For my Mom, Renee...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Peace</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">By Colleen New Holy</span><br /><br />Sunshine is gleaming like dewdrops<br />On a warm spring day<br />Untouched by wind and protected by light<br />The breeze is slow and gentle<br />Peace...<br /><br />Peace is hard to find but when you do find it...<br />Ecstasy<br />Like your one with everything<br />The tips of grass, the tinkling of leaves on a tree<br />The warm feeling of the sun<br /><br />Drifting like snow or blossoms, one by one<br />You miss your friends, family, and parents<br />Feeling the calm of day and the dreaminess of night<br />The warmness of sun<br />The cold of moondrops<br /><br />The dew shines like small moons in the moonshine<br />Peace...<br />The leaves shift and sing the birdsong<br />Trill and twitters of love and kindness<br />Love...<br /><br />Love is a mystery<br />but so is the warmth<br />Of someones love and the love to you back<br />The slow rhythm of breathing<br />The rise and fall of waves in the ocean.<br /><br />In the darkness, a loon calls out<br />Lake Superior with it's swiftly tilting bowl of water<br />The calmness of waves on the red shores of the earth<br />Peace...Peace...<br />Peace is a measurement of ecstasy<br /><br />"Give me a small measurement of peace and ecstasy."Renee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-57405069936798257312009-04-01T17:09:00.000-05:002009-04-01T17:10:36.213-05:00The Thunder Crib...The Thunder Crib<br />By Renee Sans Souci<br /><br />When we were born<br />The Sky cradled us in<br />Blankets of Thunder<br />While lightening danced<br />To Creator’s heartbeat<br />The Earth shared in echoes<br />Far and wide announcing<br />Us to the universe<br />Beginnings are raindrops<br />Which graced our smiles<br />In joy through<br />Our flashing eyes<br />We knew one another<br />Before we were sent<br />To walk with our Mother<br />As our steps lead us<br />Back to the Thunder Crib<br /><br />For the Thunder Dreamers…Renee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-3160746916301578302009-03-17T17:18:00.002-05:002009-03-17T17:22:44.994-05:00Omaha Nation Water Walk Benefit Performance Program<span style="font-weight: bold; font-family: lucida grande;"><span style="font-size:130%;">Omaha Nation Water Walk<br />Benefit Performance<br /><br />An Evening with:<br />Renee Sans Souci, Native Poet/Spoken Word Artist<br /><br />Diane Robinson-Kerr, Flautist/Songwriter<br />Fran Collier, Guitarist </span><br /></span><br />Welcome: Clair Guthrie<br /><br />Opening musical piece by Diane Robinson Kerr and Fran Collier<br /><br />Intro of Renee: Diane Robinson-Kerr<br /><br />First Reading by Renee, Accompanied by Diane:<br />Return of the Thunders (spring drum)<br /><br />Second Reading by Renee (Solo):<br />Finding the Beauty<br /><br />Third Reading by Renee, Accompanied by Diane on Big Flute:<br />Sky & Earth, Blue & Green<br /><br />Intro of Diane & Fran: Renee<br />Storytelling by Diane<br /><br />Fourth Reading by Renee, Accompanied by Diane:<br />View from the Holy Fire Place<br /><br />Fifth Reading by Renee (Solo):<br />Water is Sacred, Water is the Life (Written especially for this event)<br /><br />Final Reading by Renee, Accompanied by Diane & Fran<br />A Journey to the Heart…My Home<br /><br />Final Performance by three women and audienceRenee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-54354602620284222532009-03-17T01:41:00.001-05:002009-03-17T01:45:44.088-05:00Omaha Nation Water Walk Benefit Concert Tonight!Omaha Nation Water Walk Benefit Concert<br />Raising funds and awareness for Omaha Nation Water Walk<br /><br />Date: <br />Tuesday, March 17, 2009<br /><br />Time: <br />7:00pm - 9:00pm<br /><br />Location: <br />Unitarian Church<br /><br />Street: <br />6300 A Street<br /><br />City/Town: <br />Lincoln, NE<br /><br /><br />Spoken word artist and poet Renee Sans Souci, songwriter and storyteller Diane Robinson-Kerr, and guitarist Fran Collier join together for an evening of poetry and music to raise awareness and funds for the Omaha Nation Water Walk. E-Coli contamination of water on the Omaha reservation in northeast Nebraska is a continuing problem. The Water Walk, to take place in April, will be a prayer for healing, and will draw more awareness to the problem and possible solutions. Percussion will be provided by the audience!Renee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-34495246120791012902009-03-05T09:49:00.000-06:002009-03-05T09:51:33.387-06:00A Letter To The Community...Ewithai Wongithe! All My Relatives!<br /><br />Good Morning to each of you! I am forwarding a message that I received today about the National Day of Action for Water in Canada on Monday, April 13, 2009. This event is being co-hosted by the Native Women's Association of Canada in support of the Mother Earth Water Walk started by Grandmother Josephine Mondamin.<br /><br />The message I would also like each of you to consider here is this: What can each of us do to support this effort in our own communities and in Nebraska?<br /><br />There is a lot of concern at this time for the contaminated water problem on the Omaha Indian Reservation here in Nebraska. Many families are effected by the contamination such that there are unable to drink any water from their taps out of fear of the E-coli bacteria. This has been on-going for the past several months.<br /><br />I visited my mother two days ago and saw the situation first hand. She has been drinking bottled water from the one gallon plastic jugs that have been provided by the Omaha Tribe, which is a very good thing. But I am still concerned about the water in those plastic jugs after all the training I've been through last year on bottled water contaminants.<br /><br />We are all busy, I know, and we must all pick our battles each day as we arise for work. Yet, in this work, is there room to help support an effort that will shed light upon an on-going battle to have safe drinking water in our Native communities?<br /><br />I propose that we sponsor a Water Walk here in Nebraska not only to show support for our sisters in Canada but to also bring attention to what is happening right in our own backyards. I have heard that it takes a single drop to start a wave...<br /><br />Contact me via email if you have any more questions! Wibthahon! Thank you!<br /><br />Ewithai Wongithe! All My Relations!<br /><br />- ReneeRenee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-23447048260840112702009-03-03T17:53:00.001-06:002009-03-03T18:00:04.374-06:00Congressional Hearing on Native Youth Suicide RatesCongressional Hearing Explores High Suicide Rates Among American Indian Youth<br /><br />Eight policymakers, tribal members and health care experts discussed the high rate of suicide among American Indian youth on Thursday during a...<br /><br />To read the full article, please go to: http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/140867.phpRenee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-18642663280038545792009-03-01T01:24:00.004-06:002009-03-01T04:59:07.907-06:00Moving Forward...Moving forward. <br /><br />I've been working on that this year. Come through a lot these past several months since leaving Minneapolis/St. Paul. I made so many mistakes and have experienced the guilt that goes along with those mistakes. Huge lesson for me in humility.<br /><br />It's true I had never really intended to live in Lincoln. Wound up here with my kids. Struggled to survive every single day since arriving here. <br /><br />I thought I had accomplished something by starting to work full-time. That was short-lived. Not long after I started the new job, my youngest son began to unravel. I had just gotten to work that morning after getting everyone off to school. About mid-morning, the school called me and told me to get there as soon as possible. It was an emergency. My son was threatening to kill himself.<br /><br />I had no car at the time. It hit me so hard that I could hardly stand or think. What was I supposed to do, run over there! I told my supervisor and he recommended that I talk to one of the women upstairs, which I did. Jacinda agreed to drive me to the school.<br /><br />When I got there, the assistant principal led me upstairs where they had my son. He was being held in a small room with no furniture, windows, or anything. Only bare walls and carpet. He was lying on the floor. Holding his neck with his hands. Every so often he would squeeze himself really good and I could see his fingers turn white.<br /><br />What had I done wrong? That's all I could think. What am I supposed to do? All I could do was sit down beside him and ask him what was going on. Then I took him into my lap and held him tightly. After a while, he relaxed into my arms and just hung onto me.<br /><br />I cried as I held him and I kept telling him that I loved him over and over.<br /><br />The assistant principal asked to talk to me. She said that she had called the children's psychiatric unit and that they were prepared to take my son in for observation. Since he had been saying to everyone how he wanted to hurt himself and had been hitting his head against everything and choking himself, they thought it would be the best thing for me to do.<br /><br />What was I to do?<br /><br />I felt totally helpless with no where to turn. So I made several calls. Made arrangements for my other three children. Called my brother, Tony to pick them up after the youth program. And, then I rode with my son the hospital.<br /><br />We went through a lengthy process of filling out papers. There was a police interview and then an interview with a social worker. I was filling so numb. My son clung to me the whole time. We both just sat in shock holding each other.<br /><br />Once he was admitted the police then escorted us to the psychiatric unit. Everyone in there was extremely polite and scrutinized me from head to toe. My every move was recorded no doubt. It was so terrifying. <br /><br />They checked my son into his room. Went over all his belongings and then interviewed me about what led up to his breakdown. <br /><br />Yes, I thought, that is exactly what has happened. He's had a breakdown and I was unable to prevent it.<br /><br />My son liked his room immediately. He liked that he had all sorts of toys to play with, especially legos. He liked that he had a TV to himself. His own little bed and his very own bathroom. He seemed to just relax. <br /><br />When it was time for me to leave. I didn't want to go. How could I leave me son in such a place? The nurses and their assistants more or less pushed me out the doors. So there I stood in the lobby of this hospital. Not knowing which direction to go. In shock. Where were the nurses, psychiatrists, and social workers for me?<br /><br />When I got out onto the street, the feeling was even worse. What the hell was I supposed to do? I didn't have a ride to go anywhere, so I made my way over to the grocery store. If nothing else, I would just buy a sandwich from the refrigerated section and find a place to sit down.<br /><br />My friend Nancy called me at that moment. So I poured my heart out to her. She was so supportive and helped me to calm down. Then I called Christopher. He, too, was extremely supportive, even though he was over in New York. Still just to hear his voice was a relief.<br /><br />I didn't get a sandwich but wound up with some chicken instead. Then I returned to the hospital to find a lounge area where I could sit and think for awhile. <br /><br />I only knew that I did what I had to do. Not what I wanted to do. I would much rather have had my son with me at that very moment instead of having him in the hospital. What did I do wrong? <br /><br />Life had been quite rough for us over the years. We saw the break up of our home. We went in separate directions for a time, when my kids went with their dad for a time. We came back together so that we could start over. Rebuild.<br /><br />So how did it get this bad? I didn't see it coming. Yet, I realized that I had seen this coming. But I had no idea how to prevent it. What was I supposed to do?<br /><br />I sat in the hospital lounge for an hour or more and then returned to the psych unit for visiting hours. Then I stayed with my son for three more hours. We just held each other and breathed. <br /><br />Again, when visiting hours were over, I was ushered out. This time, it didn't seem so traumatic but still the feeling that I was abandoning my son was overwhelming. I went downstairs and waited in the lobby for my brother to pick me up. When he did, my three other children were in there and we returned to the family shelter where we were living for a few months. <br /><br />After my brother dropped us off. I took my children up to our room and got them settled. They had all their snacks and were quite content to just sit back and relax. So I went downstairs to talk to one of the staff members on duty. She was my counselor for the evening.<br /><br />There's nothing like having someone there just to hear your crying. She listened carefully and was very sympathetic. Prepared to do anything that was called for. All I wanted was to be comforted. When I felt better, she asked if it would be alright to say a prayer for me. I told her that I respected all prayers and that I would appreciate it.<br /><br />When I returned to my room. I looked at my other children. They asked me what happened, so I explained to them that their brother was in the hospital and that he would be there for several more days. Then we smudged off and went to bed.<br /><br />In the following days, we fell into a routine. Kids went to school and I took this time to reflect. Then we went to visit my son in the evenings. My brother picked us up each evening after visiting hours. Then we'd return to our room and start over again.<br /><br />I felt that my faith was being tested to the limit.<br /><br />The day came when it was determined that my son could be released from the hospital. And as we left that day. He looked up at me and said "Mom, I don't want to go back there again! I just want to be with you!" <br /><br />How do we shield our children's fragile minds from the onslaught of challenges that threaten to swallow us mind, body, and soul? All I could do was pray. <br /><br />This traumatic experience has definitely left me on edge. I have not worked since this happened and am not so willing to just accept any position, especially if it would require long hours away from my kids. Just not willing to go there...<br /><br />Moving forward can be a challenge. We can make it as difficult or as easy as we would like it to be, so I've been told. <br /><br />Me, I'd just prefer it to be easier for a change. I want to be happy as much as the next person.Renee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-66662435434810324672009-02-28T11:13:00.002-06:002009-02-28T11:19:50.889-06:00Remembering my Father...Frank Saunsoci<span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);"><span style="font-style: italic;">It's been eight years since my father made his journey home. Things have changed considerably since he's passed. Kids are older and we no longer live in the country with all our animals. We're urban dwellers now with no pets.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">This is a reprinting of a previous blog two years...</span><br /><br />This poem is one I wrote a few years ago for my dad, Frank Saunsoci. It so happened in 2003, on this very same night, I could not sleep. I was stressed out from work and in a lot of emotional pain. And, I missed my dad terribly. I stayed awake all night crying and wishing for his comfort. Before he got sick, he always knew what to say to make me feel better.<br /><br />Well, I realized that night that it was up to me now to comfort myself. So, I started to write and as I finished this poem, I felt a lot better. </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);"></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);"></span><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5036514823733375042" style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center;" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgX0WQJ_LBVPl8P91jaZ871oHn3OhJ0DF5OFk9hVCqQsfuBbbdFHTCuMrB3ZJ47SPl_AMe1NgtZGfPJQEogkd1RdfwCmYlM8413Akfwcbwy8oyeWkFFv2z0YpQYaTwzpWzjPw9n/s400/Dad.jpg" border="0" /></span><br /><strong><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);">My Father’s Voice </span></strong><strong></strong><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);">Take a moment to imagine my house…<br />My house has four children, Colleen, Rain, Remy, Amber<br />Plenty of animals…<br />At least four dogs (would you like one?),<br />A calico cat named J.P. (for the painter, Jackson Pollack),<br />And a turtle named Shellshocker, after a Pokemon of all things. </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);">My house is always so loud with my children’s voices,<br />laughing, crying, arguing, and yelling for attention<br />"Mom, I’m hungry!" says Colleen<br />"Mom, Colleen took my blocks!" says Rain<br />"Mom, Remy hit me!" says Amber<br />And the dreaded…<br />"Mom, Amber needs a diaper change, again! </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);">There are some days when I want to slap my hands over my ears<br />Just to be able to hear my own thoughts!<br />And, I always have to yell for someone to turn down that TV! </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);">As each day arrives, it is another adventure into motherhood,<br />And, I've wondered for the hundred thousandth time, how…<br />Did my mom and dad do this with seven children as well as other family members? </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);">Then I realized that what is most important to me is that my children are happy<br />…No matter that there is a ton of laundry to do<br />…No matter that toys are scattered from the living room to the bedroom<br />…No matter that there are letters, reports and memos to finish for work<br />…No matter that the phone is ringing again<br />…No matter that there is so little time to get anything done </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);">As long as my family is happy, then I am happy too. </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);">But there is always a day, a rare day like this one<br />…When I hear a voice that is no longer a part of this world<br />…So well known, so familiar<br />…It slices through all the other voices in my house, in this universe even…<br />And, I have to stop whatever I am doing and look around<br />I search for that person with that beloved voice </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);">Then it hits me painfully...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);">And it always surprises me to see that it is one of my own children,<br />Speaking clearly with my father’s voice. </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);">Then I remember the times I spent with my father…<br />Riding in the back seat of our car, safe and content<br />Visiting his mechanic friends in their garages<br />While I drank my Pepsi mixed with peanuts sitting on old tires. </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);">To this day the smell of grease and oil is as nostalgic for me<br />As the aroma of baking bread is for many others<br />I remember that my father always took the time to explain how things worked<br />Because I always had to know…<br /><em>How things worked.</em> </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);">I knew I could always count on him to listen patiently<br />And to dispense his wisdom with clarity<br />But the best thing he ever taught me was how to take care of my family,<br />This he showed me each day with his love. </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);">So, now when I hear the echoes of my father’s voice<br />I know that he is still here with me in the voices of my children. </span><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);"></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);">--For my father, Frank Saunsoci who passed away on February 28, 2001. </span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);">Written by Renee Sans Souci, February 28, 2003</span>Renee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-423316796058097052009-02-24T02:24:00.003-06:002009-02-24T04:02:10.408-06:00When Do We Actually Heal?On a healing journey, when do we actually heal? <br /><br />While talking to a friend yesterday, she related to me some of the most painful incidences in her life. The physical and mental abuse she endured in her relationship. I listened to her with understanding because I know in many ways what she has been through. And, I can only pray for her that she will come out of it in due time.<br /><br />In presentations I have given on Native Women and healing, I speak about identifying what has hurt me in the past, confronting what has hurt me, and then letting it go. Forgiving the past. Healing those memories, or more specifically, those cells that carry those traumatic memories.<br /><br />Not everyone knows that I suffer from a form of Social Anxiety Disorder that stems from childhood incidences of abuse. Particularly from physical and mental abuse from a teacher when I was in the second grade.<br /><br />My family had just moved to the reservation in 1969. After spending an idyllic summer playing in the countryside of my mother's home. The time arrived for my first day in school. All kids are anxious about the first day, especially when they are new to the district. Being only seven, I had no idea what was in store for me.<br /><br />The second grade teacher, I was assigned to, was an elderly white woman. She had been teaching on the reservation for years, I'm certain. Probably retired from there, as well. I don't know what it was about me that caught her attention but it seemed from the start, she sought to humiliate me.<br /><br />I often felt like I was on trial for a crime I didn't even know I had committed. There were times when she would make me stand up in class to answer her. The questions made no sense to me so I often gave her answers which she found unsatisfactory. Her response to "my mistakes" were to shame me and put me down in front of all my classmates. And what made it so bad was that my classmates reveled in my humiliation and laughed at my torture. <br /><br />As the days continued on, I became more resistant. I did not want to go to school. I fought and cried and begged my parents not to send me into class. It didn't work.<br /><br />I found myself in the middle of a nightmare that continued for months. <br /><br />When I refused to respond for this teacher, she would then come over to my desk and drag me out of it and force me to stand up. Often times she hit me with anything that was handy, books were most often her choice.<br /><br />Then I had to stand in front of the class once again, sobbing my humiliation and hurt, while they laughed openly at me. I had no defenders come to my rescue. And the ultimate betrayal in all of this was that most of my classmates were also my relatives.<br /><br />I don't know what finally got through to my mother, maybe one of the students from the other classes said something to her. But she came to my class with me one day and confronted the teacher. Whatever this teacher had said to my mother must have set her off because the next thing I know, my mom was chasing her around and around her desk. <br /><br />I can still see that clearly in my mind.<br /><br />My parents removed me from that school immediately. But by then, the months I had spent in that teacher's company had left a mark on my spirit. <br /><br />Children are resilient and heal quickly, they say. I believe that is true for most part. Yet, there is still healing that must occur with the hurt inflicted upon us as children. Many of us adults are still carrying around such hurt that is not healed.<br /><br />I avoid almost any situation that resembles having to stand up in front of a classroom to be ridiculed. Even the most innocent social interaction sets me on an edge where I don't care to be. So instead of welcoming such interaction, I flee, much to the consternation of friends, colleagues, and relatives.<br /><br />So, over the years, I realized that in order to heal that part of me, which is that child that still carries those memories, I had to confront those fears and anxieties. I forced myself to stand up in front of classrooms by becoming a teacher myself. Only I am hopefully, one who is more considerate of the young spirits in my charge. <br /><br />The other thing I have done is to become a performance artist of the spoken word. The poetry I create and read to others is based on the hurt, the healing, and the spiritual relationships we have to one another and to the Earth and the Sky.<br /><br />And, of course, I write.<br /><br />And I champion those whom I feel need my support. Especially the children. Since I am also a mother of four intelligent, sensitive souls.<br /><br />I am still learning to heal myself.Renee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-9110058945606934672009-02-16T23:33:00.002-06:002009-02-16T23:36:39.760-06:00King Without A Crown by Matisyahu...My brother Chris Cartmill turned me onto Matisyahu about three years ago. I just love his song "King Without A Crown." When I hear it, it makes me happy because this is how I feel about the Grandfathers everyday...<br /><br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/Buy8dLlfBZE&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/Buy8dLlfBZE&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>Renee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-14934632791927752762009-02-01T14:32:00.003-06:002009-02-01T14:37:28.015-06:0025 Random Things About Me...Taken from FacebookI'm addicted to Facebook! This list came out over the last few days and many of us, bravely decided to fill it out. Then I thought I'd add it to my blog. I still haven't figured out how to link my blog to Facebook. See how that goes!<br /><br />Anyway here is the list:<br /><br />25 Random things about me:<br /><br />1. One of my Indian names is Sacred Horse Woman, which mostly all my friends and relatives know me by. (I have two others.)<br />2. I grew up hearing the Omaha language all around me but did not speak it!<br />3. As a result, I advocate for Native language revitalization.<br />4. Studied 4 foreign languages: English, Spanish, French, and German. <br />5. Studying 3 indigenous languages: Omaha, Ojibwe, and Lakota.<br />6. I have designed a Native language immersion school.<br />7. My goal is to bring it into existence as I was instructed to do by the Tunkasilas, Manitous...<br />8. I love reading and writing poetry.<br />9. One of my poems, "View from the Holy Fire Place" was read in the Sacred Sites Production last year. (Credit to Sheila Rocha who did a wonderful job in creating an amazing show!).<br />10. I saw and touched the Berlin Wall a year before it was torn down.<br />11. I have actually sat in a beer garden with singing Bavarians (But I forgot to wear lederhosen).<br />12. I climbed the steps of one of the spires of the Cologne Cathedral nearly to the top but couldn't make it because I'm afraid of heights!<br />13. I love skydiving...just kidding, I'm afraid of heights, remember? Checking to see if you are paying attention.<br />14. I love riding my bike because when I do I feel like I can do anything or go anywhere.<br />15. I love singing (no, not with the Bavarians, I just love singing, with my bros, especially).<br />16. One of my favorite songs is Native Dance Hall by Native Roots, a reggae band.<br />17. A few years ago, I became a spiritual runner and ran for the youth and for sacred sites! (Am still on call for all spiritual runs.)<br />18. Heyokas are attracted to me or I am to them. (So what does that make me?)<br />19. Last year, I became a danzante (Aztec Dancer). I love Danza.<br />20. I used to smoke.<br />21. I long to live in a home that is more aligned with our Native traditions, like an earthlodge with a contemporary twist.<br />22. I only watch t.v. for about 15 minutes a day or less.<br />23. I love the mountains, the badlands, the deserts, and the woodlands, and any place there is water.<br />24. Water is sacred. I am a protector of water.<br />25. My kids are my anchor, without them I don't know where I'd be, probably living out in the wild somewhere...ferally.Renee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32850697.post-36959940227810634412009-02-01T13:37:00.002-06:002009-02-01T13:40:13.721-06:00Jim Main, Sr. Being Laid to Rest Today...<h2 class="date-header">Friday, January 30, 2009</h2> <a name="3805824548209285394"></a> <h3 class="post-title entry-title"> <a href="http://bsnorrell.blogspot.com/2009/01/jim-main-sr-takes-flight-to-spirit.html">Jim Main, Sr., takes flight to Spirit World</a> </h3> <a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_McMU28y8NxQ/SYO3oOAdTaI/AAAAAAAAPbA/m1FBpevpGKA/s1600-h/jim_Main+by+bnorrell.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5297279488300502434" style="margin: 0px 0px 10px 10px; float: right; width: 320px; height: 235px;" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_McMU28y8NxQ/SYO3oOAdTaI/AAAAAAAAPbA/m1FBpevpGKA/s320/jim_Main+by+bnorrell.jpg" border="0" /></a><br />Found this posted on another blog entitled Censored News...<br /><br />By Tia Oros Peters<br />Photo of Jim Main, Sr, at home by Brenda Norrell<br />Dear Seventh Generation Fund Relatives and Friends,<br /><br />With a heavy heart I share with you the news of Jim Main Sr., (Gros Ventre) passing to the Spirit World. As many of you may remember Jim Main, he was a steadfast and unrelenting warrior for Indigenous Peoples and especially for our homelands and sacred sites. In fact, his words and guidance helped inform our Sacred Sites Protection Campaign – including our memorable person Sacred Earth Summit in 2001 in Seattle, WA, and again, in 2002 in San Diego, CA.<br /><br />A member of the White Clay Society, Jim was a treasured leader to Seventh Generation Fund for many years. He will be sorely missed by our organization. We trusted Jim. We were honored when he attended our convenings and shared his great wisdom, wit, and generous spirit. He taught us through his conduct and his dedication. We looked to him often to help us. And, he was always generous.<br /><br />Jim was a true and consistent warrior, to be sure. And, as such, he was also a gracious, kind, thoughtful and honorable leader that set for us a clear pathway of how to continue work on behalf of our respective peoples.<br /><br />Jim would be so pleased to know of recent sacred sites victories in places like Panhe in California, and just a couple of days ago in Zuni, New Mexico. It would have been great to march with him in Redding, in the struggle to protect Hatchet Mountain (Pit River Country) from (so-called green) windmills that will damage a sacred area, and severely impact golden and bald eagle habitat. He knows, where he is now in the other world, that we will continue the good fight for our peoples. Today, in mourning, and reflecting on how much we have learned from Jim Main Sr., we carry forward – heavy hearted but as determined as ever to strive, to fight, to honor our ancestors, as he did.<br /><br />It is always so hard when we lose one of our elders. The world seems that much emptier, bigger, more difficult to travel through. Jim’s presence meant a great deal to so many of our community and projects. SGF sincerely hopes that our work continues to carry forth the great legacy and integrity of Jim Main Sr., a warrior of character, determination, and outstanding leadership. On behalf of our organization, board, staff and the Indigenous communities we serve throughout the Indigenous World, I extend a heartfelt condolence to Jim’s family, community and Nation.<br />May he be in peace.<br />All Our Relations,<br />Tia --Tia Oros Peters, Executive Director, Seventh Generation Fund for Indigenous Development, Office Ph: 707-825-7640 x111 <a href="http://www.7genfund.org/">http://www.7genfund.org/</a><br />Supporting Social, Environmental and Cultural Justice for 32 Years (1977 – 2009)<br /><br /><strong>In memory of Jim Main, Sr., the following interview is posted, written while I visited with him and his family at home, on Gros Ventre land two years ago. Sincere condolences to his family. </strong><strong>Jim was a true warrior, arising with courage in his lifelong fight for the people, Brenda Norrell<br /><br />In Montana, Indians are guilty until proven innocent</strong><br />By Brenda Norrell<br /><br />HAYS, Montana – James Main, Sr., Gros-Ventre and longtime advocate of Indian rights, said some conditions have improved for American Indians in Montana, particularly the treatment of Indians by government officials. Ranchers in north-central Montana often get along well with<br />Indian cowboys.<br />However, the treatment of Indians by the Montana Justice System has not improved its treatment of Indian people.<br />"We've got a long way to go with the Justice system. I'd like to see a handful of radical attorneys come over here and shake this place up, attack the system," Main said.<br />Main, known internationally as a voice for Indigenous Peoples, now in poor health following open-heart surgery, has a personal view of the state system.<br />James Sr. laughs remembering how Bill Means said Jim Jr. should be a comedian because of his impersonations of John Wayne and others. Jim Jr. was the caregiver of his mother, Vernie White Cow Main, who lives on the homesite where she was born on Big Warm Creek on the Fort Belknap Nation.<br />James Sr. said, "Jim took care of her. He almost had to be a nurse for six months. He trained himself to take care of her."<br />James Sr. spent his life traveling for Indigenous rights, helping those who needed him. "I decided to do some good," he said of his decision to live a life in service to humankind.<br />"I learned a lot about different people and different cultures. I never knew there were other Indians in California. I thought John Wayne got them all," James Sr. joked.<br />"It's good to travel, travel around."<br />Seated at home in the community of his childhood at Hays, James Sr. is surrounded by memories and the passing of time.<br />"I don't know how long I'm going to last. I have got a lot of people praying for me. These Mayan Indians went up on a pyramid in Guatemala.<br />It must have been a very powerful ceremony. I knew; it was in my mind."<br />On his living room wall, there is a huge poster of a Gros Ventre man. It reads, "Sits on High, EK-GIB-TSA-ATSKE, of the White Clay People A'AH'NI NIN."<br />James Sr. looks at the poster and says, "He did what they wanted him to do, settle down. Then, they took his land."<br />Speaking about those who took the land here, rich in gold, water and forests, he says, "They make a fortune and they die."<br />These days, James Sr. teaches his grandsons the philosophy that he has lived by. It is the philosophy of pride, self-esteem and honoring the culture.<br />"Go back to your old ways, traditions and culture. That is what I teach my grandsons. Try to get the language back," he adds. There are only a handful of speakers left.<br />James Sr. remembers the harsh years at St. Paul's Mission School.<br />During second grade, when the children went to pray during Christmas mass, the nuns told them Santa Claus would come if they had been good.<br />If not, there would be willow switches waiting. When they returned, they expected presents and instead found a stack of willow switches. There was also writing on the blackboard.<br />"I recognized the writing. It was a priest's, telling us how bad we were."<br />The little children were often beaten. James Sr. remembers, "They would slap us around for nothing."<br />Remembering his father Tom Main, James Sr. said, "He was a humanitarian, a real leader. He did things for nothing. He could have amassed a fortune, but he didn't."<br />James Sr. said Tom Main served as an interpreter at a time when few White Clay People spoke English. Tom served on the executive committee of the National Congress of American Indians.<br />"I learned a lot from him, he was honest to a fault," Jim Sr. said of his father.<br />"We had a pretty rough upbringing, we were poor and we had to haul water a long way. We burned wood, so we had to saw wood. My mother used to wash on Saturdays, all we did all day long was haul water."<br />James Sr. grew up with three brothers and four sisters. Today, all of his brothers are living and the oldest is 86. He served in the Air Force in Japan and was there when the Korean War began in 1950.<br />James Sr. also worked in the copper mines for 15 years. "That's where there was never racism, a melting pot."<br />The happiest days of his life were spent during his high school years. "We rode horseback, we rode bucking horses; there were lots of wild horses. We had powwows during the holidays, I really enjoyed those. We had bone games, hand games, we would sing songs and have a guessing game. We tried to guess whose hand the bone was in."<br />The men and women played each other. Kumeyaay have similar games, he said. During their travels, both Jim Sr. and Jim Jr. earned the respect of Indian people.<br />Read entire article:<br /><a href="http://bsnorrell.blogspot.com/2007/11/in-montana-indians-are-guilty-until.html">http://bsnorrell.blogspot.com/2007/11/in-montana-indians-are-guilty-until.html</a><br />From Indigenous Environmental Network: Jim Main Sr., elder and warrior was an intregal part in the founding and creation of IEN, and was a long term National Council member for IEN. He was also a member of the International Indigenous Treaty Council and the Grand Governing Council of the American Indian Movement. His teachings of wisdom and the memory of his humor and traditional songs will stay with us.Ga-a-woo-wuss (Coyote Bear), a.k.a. James Main, Sr., of the White Clay Nation died peacefully in his sleep at approximately 4:30 a.m. on January 29, 2009. His hard-fought battle with End-Stage Congestive Heart Failure over the past several years finally took its toll about two weeks ago. Like a true warrior, he did not go down easily, but went with honor and dignity. To the end, he maintained his humor, making those around him laugh…and cry as he used his dwindling strength to sing, talk Indian, pray, and tell of old times. Always at the center of his heart and spirit was the survival of the Red Nations. It is an overwhelmingly sad day for his loved ones here on earth, but truly a victorious day for a warrior who is so deserving of the peace, love, and acceptance he will meet as all our relatives take him to his rightful place in the spirit world, known as the “Big Sands” to the White Clay people.Wake services will be held Saturday, January 31 beginning at 5:00 p.m. at his residence in Hays, Montana.<br />Traditional services will be held Sunday, February 1 at 1:00 p.m. followed by burial at the family cemetary in Big Warm, Montana.<br /><br />If you would like to make a contribution to the family at this time -<br />Please Contact: Rose Main: 406.390.5350 (mobile), 406.673.3013 (home)<br />James Main, Sr.'s residence: 406.673.3813<br />William "Snuffy" Main: 406.945.7349<br />Harold "Jiggs" Main: 406.262.3041Renee Sans Souci, Shonge Xube Wau (Sacred Horse Woman)http://www.blogger.com/profile/13518914945328834631noreply@blogger.com0